Hee hee...I'm back.
Feeling lots of things today.

My thoughts, moods, and feelings are coming and going quite randomly. This is normal for me. Today I've been alternating between feeling hopeful, peaceful, worried, horny, nervous, sad, bored, and excited.

For some reason, everything that goes through my head has a feeling to go along with it. Rarely can I simply think about something and have the thought arrive in my head alone. My thoughts always come dragging an emotional state behind them. I don't like this much of the time, but cannot seem to help it. Telling myself not to think negative things is like telling a toddler to color between the lines. Pointless.

The way my brain works is undoubtedly the reason why I devote my life so wholeheartedly to the pursuit of fun. When I am engaged in some joyful activity, the worry, sadness, regret, and fear cannot put their bony grasp around my mind. However, I know those awful thoughts/feelings are always there - waiting in the wings to grab ahold of me the second they get the chance.

And so I live my life running...